Hello, I'm Jesse, and I'm obsessed with ocs, languages, and sleeping.I am a chef by day, and a writer by free time. Currently working on my own novel, little by little, but it's a long process. Probably won't be finished for a few years. I have also recently started to write poetry again for the first time in over six years.While I never learned a foreign language in school, I'm doing it now as an adult. These can vary depending on what I'm obsessing over or becoming integrated with in some way. I have been learning Mandarin since 2022, but that has slowed down as I have recently started to learn Portuguese as of May 2023; my boyfriend is from Brazil, and learning his language is something that I really want to do.When I'm not doing any of those things or working at whatever job I've signed my soul away to, I'm legitimately obsessed with making ocs, as stated above. I have been creating ocs since I was a small child, and I can't seem to make myself stop. They're wonderful vehicles for telling stories, or working out inner conflicts or trauma. I can't understand people who don't make ocs. It's so alien to me.I'm also autistic, and one of my special interests throughout my entire life has been fantasy politics, governments, economics, and so on. There's nothing I love more than exploring political climates of places that don't exist, especially when I create my own worlds for my ocs. I've spent years developing my own such things, and I'm so excited to share some of them in my upcoming novel.
Please be aware that I have severe borderline personality disorder! I have this listed publicly because this affects my every day life and greatly influences how I will interact with people. This disorder actively keeps me from being able to socialize in a typical manner, and friendships are hard for me to make, let alone maintain.I'm a very angry and bitter person when it comes to my mental conditions because they have ruined my life and so many experiences and opportunities for me over the years. They're not uwu cutesy conditions like y'all think they are. I can and will block people that I see trivializing mental illnesses, especially BPD. It's not fun or a joke, it's not "something you soo totally have" because you saw a grossly misinformative Tiktok about it. It's a serious condition and has been ruining my life for over twenty years and has caused more relationship failures in my life than you'll ever experience, both romantic and platonic. It is MISERABLE, and it's not something that you can just decide that you want to pretend to have because you need an extra convenient label to add to your pile of quirky self-diagnosed shit.
A small disclaimer: I am bisexual! And while I don't have a problem with pansexual people, I DO have a problem when pan people try to insist that pan = all genders and bi = only two/two or more. Go to hell. Bisexuality has always and will always include all gender identities. You should read some actual LGBT history about bisexuality instead of getting all of your info from chronically online Tumblr users.
